Nineteen Minutes entry 3

Right after the shooting took place, the shooter was identified as Peter. Lacy Houghton, Peter's mother was of course, in disgust, in shock, wondering what could she have done to prevent this from happending. As a mother, her natural instict is to find her son. To make sure he is okay. She finds a way to think past what terrible crime Peter has committed in order to look out for the welfare of him. She calls an attorney who agrees to take on the case. Jordan has no idea what to expect, but knows that he has gotten himself into a long process. When they meet for the first time, Peter is in jail. While Jordan expects to find Peter quiet and terrifed, the opposite is true. Peter treats Jordan just as any other teenage  boy would. He questions why he is in jail which is shocking to Jordan. Jordan responds "What do you mean?" (133). Peter bursts out that he is the victim. The people around them caused him to act in such a terrible way and yet,  he is being punished. He cannot wrap his head around the fact that what he did was terrible. The bullying and isolation causes Peter to always feel in danger and at caution. He feels no security at school and his initial reaction to being forced into jail proves that he feels by killing the people at his school, he has done nothing wrong. For once, he feels a sense of control and power. People were afraid of him and this is something that Peter has never felt before. Futhermore, Peter does not feel remorse and considers himself a victim. I find this concept to be so startling, but at the same time, the extent to which Peter is bullied his entire life has turned him to feel and act in such a manner.